Pause.

Some times when the situation gets too overwhelming,

Just stop.

Remind yourself of why you started in the first place.

Remind yourself to always go back to your first love and you will find that strength to carry on.

Remind yourself of that belief you held on.

Remind yourself.

TRUTH

"God's grace is made perfect in my weakness"

I live by this truth, every day.

And that is why, 

Every morning i wake up pass 9am comforting myself "Gods grace is sufficient".

Believing day is going to be the most productive one yet since the last productive day which is a day I cant even recall anymore. 

Shower & parents would so kindly offer to bring me out for breakfast.

Out of hunger / greed / daughter's duty, i would most instantly say yes without second thought. 

Come home by or some time after noon feeling almost ready to kill anything that gets in my way of studying

Arrange books nicely on table; pre study mode!

Warm seat up & flip a few pages to get into study mood long enough to feel stomach calling for lunch break. 

Lunch break.

Fight against food coma 

Time to prepare dinner 

Post-dinner - Food coma part II

Mental condition 

@10.00pm - NO SLEEP TONIGHT. 

@1.00am - sleep early, tmr wake up early (i.e. 6am) study. 

@6.00am - alarm rings, snooze. 

@9.00am - LIFEEEEE!!!! 

Cycle repeats. 

The last time i felt this stupid

Was A2 Maths paper 3.

Secret trust, you win.

reminder! reminder!

when was the last time i took no for an answer?

when was the last time i allowed someone to speak death into my life and believe it?

when was the last time i stop believing that as long as i want sth bad enough i can make it happen?

why did i let it happen this time? pfft.

sucker, you're going down! 

LIFE GOAL FOR THE NEXT THREE WEEKS.

WAKE UP BY 9AM.

NO SLEEP IF POSSIBLE (what a joke). sleep is such a waste of time.

NO BRINING IPAD INTO TOILET FOR NO.2 *shy*

ONLY LANGUAGE I SPEAK - TRUST. EVIDENCE. TORT. LAND.

I BREATHE LAW. I EXHALE LAW. OXYGEN, WHAT?.

EAT BELOW HALF AN HOUR.

SHOWER BELOW 15 MINUTES.

CHECK FACEBOOK AND TWITTER BELOW / WITHIN 1 MINUTE (heh).

TRANSFORM MY HUMAN BODY INTO A ROBOT THAT RUNS ON BATTERY.

MISSION BEGINS.